Love Prevails.

Feel privileged, I am just going to type an excerpt out of my journal with God - a rarety. Some of this stuff may shock you mate - BE WARNED! :) "As I come before God in prayer about my past relationship with a girl (she was and is Wiccan and I was and am a Christian) I was wondering why it is my times with her are the deepest love that I have felt or experienced? Perhaps the deepest instance of love that I can recall. As I pause, I am struck by the response lodging in my spirit. It's like God is saying to me "It was a mutual acceptance and ignorance, due to sexual desire". As I think on this more I remember the amount of times that I said to her "Just become a Christian & everything will be fine" to which she would reply "just become a wiccan". Stalemate. At that time, my committment was deeply rooted enough that I would not leave this God of mine, this Jesus who bled for my atonement. However, when it cam to me being a moral witness of Jesus, I compromised. We both had chosen to be ignorant orr tolerant of the other persons religious beliefs (although it was in the forefront of my mind) in order to be in harmony on the common ground we had... sexual desire for one another and a desire to be physically and intimately close. The desire for physical intimacy with the one I was committed to was so strong that I had deluded my self, in thinking it was love. Part of this was due to my now Christian mindset of having to be in a loving marriage to have experiences of a sexual nature. I was making excuses and compromising my beliefs, making it OK. I had mistakenly chosen sexual gratification over true love (with a partner and with God). I had turned a godly mindset inside out. Love had become a bi-product (or secondary addition) to sexual activity because I had focused on sexual closeness and genuinely believed that it was loving intimacy. But really it was a selfish flesh gratifying relationship, but it was all we knew. But... the godly model is that love, Chrst-like, God-centred, self-sacrifcing love should be the primary focus of an intimate relationship and both marriage and sex are a bi-product or secondary addition to it. Love Prevails!" Ok, so I have adapted a bit as it would not have made sense. Maybe I should just process on my blog from now on, as it is easier to delete mistakes and re-word for my true meaning. Even, as I wrote this up, I was struck with the last few lines of it, but on the side of marriage this time and not sex.As Christians, especially when young in the faith, it is easy to get pressured (usually inadvertently) into a desire for marriage because it is the vehicle for sex. However, marriage should not be even in the headlights until love is deeply rooted. Love should prevail over all. Some scripture comes to mind too.... 1 Corinthians 13:13 "So now faith, hope and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love." Ephesians 3:14-19 "For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth is named, that according to the riches of his glory he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith—that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God. "